I played mouthwash where they had a sentence that went like "The bad thing that happend doesn't define you as a person" but I don't know. I don't understand how people can think like that, why is stealing okay? Why is hurting people okay? Is it to make you feel better, but how. How do you find pleasure in that.

I have an ex who wanted to have sex with me and even though I said no he would find a way for me to pleasure him. Forcing me drunk and talking me into the fact I should give him head, being mad at me if I didn't and one time trying to force me into doing the thing with him. Mulitple times he tried but it always ended up with me crying and him getting annoyed and trying to gaslight me into that he didn 't try anything and that I was the one moving. I don't understand why he did that and it still gives me trauma flashbacks. I don't understand what I did wrong for him to never see me as a child who was 15 and confused to why it was a top priority for everyone to have sex.

SELF SABOTAGE IS REAL ☆⌒(> _ <), I started Dating the guy I was talking about on the blog It has been great and nobody has ever treated me so well. He shows that it's okay to be scared and it's okay to say when things are bothering me, but because he's so great it makes me scared. I easily get mad at him because, I don't even know . I don't want to lose him because I love him and need him, but I everything makes me so mad and I want it to stop.

I have never been more confused about my feelings and my life than I am now, and I don't know how to feel about it. I really, really love my friends, but it seems almost certain that I love being alone. Letting people down is something I absolutely hate, and it makes me so uncomfortable when they do things for me. I feel so bad. Yet my psychiatrist has informed me that I extreme attachment issues.

There's this guy I've recently got back in touch with, and it feels like my life depends on him, even though it doesn't. He's just a really nice fella . I really adore him to the point where it drives me crazy. He's so sweet, and I don't have many people like him in my life, so it feels strange when he does something kind just cuz he wants to. I messed up badly in the past because I was confused about my feelings and everything around me, and I regret it so much. But I feel like I'll always be stuck in the past.